miracles needed

2010-06-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

12:32PM

Hey! Just woke up. Fuxuan ditched me once again. == I just have a feeling yesterday that I will not go out today. I think something emotional happened to her or something. You know, those standard things. Okay. Slept quite well despite the things that happened yesterday.
~

[Flashback]
Was going to Bishan to meet buyer. Went to buy greentea and went back to Breadtalk to wait. She came, blahblahblah. Then I left. When I was inside the MRT Station, something dropped into my carrier, so I was like, what is that? Wallet? I looked up, and there he was, that face of his. I pushed the wallet towards his stomach and walked away. Praying he don't spoil my day. Yeah, but that's not poosible. He followed me to everywhere and anyway, irritating me. His mouth just wouldn't stop no matter how much I expressed my annoyance. And know what? I'm even crazy enough to drink coffee with him at Secret Recipe. I don' know what he ordered. I don't care. I just know he ordered ice latte for me. He continued to crap. Story about his dad, his life and his infamous doings. Well, my impression of him changed a little cos he annoyed me the whole day. Went to Etude House to get some nail polish remover. He shoved that blue note to the cashier. I took his blue note and handed my blue note to her before returning his blue note. Then he was like shall I buy you something? I was like nope. There's nothing else I need and want. He walked to the nail colour column, "which colour you like?" Damn, it's starting again. So I decided that it is best to play along with him so I will not get embarassed. " You pick." He began taking most of the colours.
Me: I will throw the rest and accept only one.
Him: One is not enough.
Me: The amount you are holding now is too much. Are you planning to get a member or somthing?
Him: Why not? Or shall I get the member card for you?
Me: *ignored his question* When things get overboard, there's no sincerity anymore. It will become bribing.
Him: Just accept.
Me: *Walked out*

He caught up with me, handing me the plastic bag. Yes, it only have one inside.
"You downplayed my man's pride. What's this? I didn't say I'm sincered in the first place. I'm just trying to impress the staff there." Knowing the rich people style, " Looks like I completely spoil your plan, Mr Ang." XD Blahblahblah, he accompanied me to Hougang and we ate there. Yes, he ate again. Then we parted ways.

P.S. As much as I didn't want to admit, I like the colour. It's the colour that I wanted to try after seeing my friend nails painted with that colour in the June Holiday Maths Remedial. Shimmering Bronze. That's the colour on my ten finger nails now although I have to remove them soon. Hope I can remember to remove them before my mum sees them. ^^

[End of Flashback]

-YITING

Thursday

240610(BE2T IS HERE!)

1:10PM

2010-06-17T15:01:00.000-07:00

Good morning! It's now 6:01AM. Not that I woke up this early, it's that I still have not sleep in this late hour. Okay, woke up at 3:44PM yesterday as I went to sleep only at 4+AM. So after I woke up, eat and slack, then around 4+PM, Terence called, wanted me to get ready right then. I was like why, and he just KAB my call. Fine, so blahblahblah. He came, I went with him. Brought me the event. Grand event. Refused at first. But he damn wanted me to go and doesn't want to stop the car. Like this, I was escorted there. Changed into the dress he handed to me. He knows my style, so the dress is okay. He wanted to straighten my hair, argued with him and gave him my you're-are-dead-if-you-do-that look and he listened. My hair was ended up being sprayed by all sorts of spray. The best part was I don't even know what the stylist was doing to my hair. So I just used the laptop. It turned out pretty, so I didn't say anything about it. I was forced to put on contact lenses instead, as they said it doesn't match my dressing and even the event so I was like fine. What can I say when I'm already there? Put on make-up. I don't make-up often but this is the first time my face was covered with such thick layer of powder, so I requested to re-do it, this time lesser. And true enough, it was much natural. So the event started. Went together with Terence and spotted Uncle and Aunt. Went over to greet them amd Uncle told me how to react and behave during this event period. So we lingered around. Terence went chatting with guests from time to time so I just went outside and walked around. I too, managed to meet some "friends", exchanged numbers and such. I didn't freaked out or anything but I'm definitely not comfortable with it. Although it's a good experience, but once is enough. And I reached my nanny's house around 2AM or so. Yes, that big even thing ended real late/early. Okay, I shall end here

-YITING

6:25AM

180610

2010-06-14T12:52:00.000-07:00

Hey people. The time now is 3:52AM, 150610, Tuesday. Have not complete the english comprehension. Still left with the summary. But my hands are like freaking cold as I'm sitting under the aircon and my writing was like damn "beautiful" so I thought I should exercise my fingers to get warmth but it doesn't seem to be working, I began touching my lappy to feel the heat but it wasn't strong enough. I'm here, in my nanny's house, Sis's room all alone. No noise, only the clicking and typing sounds. Shall I on some music? After comprehension, there's still maths homework. Lots of thanks to Mr. Lim. Went to Plaza Singapura to stock-up stuff in the afternoon and today, I sold 2 items! Decided to go to Far East's Toms and Toms to have coffee tomorrow. Yeah, alone. Was damn cold and my phone rang just now. Being pissed off by the caller who have the guts to call me at 3AM, I threw the phone under the pillow and continued to look for the meaning of the words on dictionary.com. And yes, the phone stopped ringing but it rang again 3 seconds after. Fed up, I took my phone and looked at the caller and upon seeing his name, I threw the phone back under the pillow and decided to enjoy my ringing tone instead. Then I suddenly remembered that I have not inform him something so I just "Hello" into the phone after pressing "Answer".

Me: Hello?
You: Hey.
Me: Yea?
You: What are you doing?
Me: Homework.
You: You mean this time? Wow...
Me: Yea.
You: Well, I'm freezing to death now. Bro on the aircon till so low.
Me: *Thinking 'me too'* Is it? Turn on the heater then.
You: Hah... Oh ya, I have called my friends to stop emailing and calling plus texting you, so you can rest assured now, though the pictures are still not down yet...
Me: Oh, thanks anyway. Ya, your dad knows where you stay already. He's visiting next week.
You: You told him?
Me: Yea, since he decided not to control you anymore, why not?
You: I see.
Me: ...
You: I'll call you again. I gotta sleep. Bye and nights.
Me: Bye and goodnight.

What you've just read is a conversation I have with this friend that I have known for 4 years. I couldn't help but feel disappointed. Not only to him, but to myself as well. He called, wanting me to rest assured and I picked up the phone just to tell him his dad knows where he stays. Okay I shall stop here and find a way to get warm since I don't even have a blanket.

-YITING

4:24AM

(read and edited ,4:29AM)

2010-06-05T09:28:00.000-07:00

So now you are spamming me? You are forcing me to report you, aren't you? Just wait. Pray you don't come to me crying, for I'll ignore you. I'm serious. I would throw everything away if I really have to. I wouldn't even return you. Don't make me hate you. You wouldn't like that. I'm trying my best here to hide everything, why are you messing with me?! You're good at ruining one's mood. Good job.

2010-06-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

I know you are using me. But I don't mind. Anyway, it doesn't hurt me in anyway and I always thought that it's fine since we are like super close. But what you said this dawn seriously made me speechless, I thought you were just joking like usual, but it doesn't seem that way. You are no more worried about me and I feel like I'm toyed by you. You don't need to ruin my mood early in the morning you know? You don't have to phone me you know? You're in fact are disturbing me you know? You are wasting my money and time you know? Do you know?! In case you don't know, I'm repeating myself, that JinHye loves you, but so what? She's being controlled by that whatever Ass you call. She practically don't have any principal. Don't she feel useless and helpless that she can't have a life that can be called her life? I don't care whether she sleeps with you or something. I have watched your porn before, remember? So what if you have a son? Are you blaming me now? She suddenly used your email to mail me, with Adrian's picture attached to it and started asking questions about him? How in the world would I know that's not you? Why don't you ask her why she used your email instead? She loves you to her death, then it's weird that she actually did such disrespectful acts instead of just asking you who's that American Born Chinese child is. What's is wrong with her is what I wanted to ask, and yet you screamed at me through the phone, calling me slow and stupid?? And the time was like 2.14AM? Hey Dude, now I want to say, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?! Go and study your history for godsake if you have the time to question me about this kind of absurb stuff. I hope this would stop. If that JinHye girl is the cause of the end of our friendship, then I can just say that you are useless and helpless as well, because she is fucking damn controlling you now, you blind ass! And if she is jealous, just call her to ask that Ass of hers to remove that picture of ours. You think I enjoyed that kind of fame? Don't be crazy. You know since then how many emails do I received from your classmates? How much phone calls I received? It's my holiday so don't spoil it. You have night classes but I'm having my sleep for goodness sake. I advice you to keep the phone of yours to yourself and not showing off to others. If you want to boast your phone around, make sure you delete my number and messages, pictures as well. If you can't remember my phone number, so be it. I don't give a damn. But before you stop bossing around with my business, please try to stop all the calls and emails from your friends. I don't like being so famous yea.

P.S. I had to admit. Your guys classmates are nice. They ask me about my day. And I think I will start to enjoy chatting with them. Oh yea, come back to get back at me. You know I do miss you. And I miss slapping that face of yours. Bring that JinHye if you have the ability to take her from that Ass. I will lecture you infront of her face. You have the guts to embarrass me infront of her, you would also have the guts to be embarrassed by me infront of her? Let's be fair and we will be equal. I shall look forward to your arrival.

2010-06-02T07:24:00.000-07:00

Hey people. I was soooo shocked by that phone call. I was like huh? Serious? Then what's going to happen to me? Oh my, what kind of trouble did I get myself into? Was having a great time with friends today hanging out at Bugis but the news just alarmed me to my life. It ruined my entire mood, seriously. And what do you mean by try not to appear in places like Orchard? Even Somerset and Douby Ghuat? What?! You're kidding me or something? Gosh. I don't know anything now. If Fate really wants me to meet him, there's nothing I can do. I don't know!!!! I didn't eat meals today so don't tire me out. Thanks alot.

2010-05-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

GOSH! My mood sucks now! I seriously hate this house. I don't know what's wrong with my mum. Nothing to talk to me then find those lamest topic to start a conversation. I was like duh and she angry. She seriously need a doctor. And I'm so going to live alone next time.

2010-05-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

Okay, today was okay. Went to the locker and displayed the stuff and sold one of them when I was still busy displaying. Good start eh? Then the shopkeeper came to me to tell me come stuff. And she said something very encouraging. Thank you! BlahBlahBlah. Gillian accompanied me the whole day. Thanks!!! ^^ And we spend money like it's printed. :) Er, then have to go for tuition so went back to Yishun. Yea, now chatting on the phone with that ass of mine, to keep him awake! Yea, he's using me.... _l_ Anyway, thats all for today. :D

Receipe for the day:

-Swensens lunch ($22)
-Bata shoelift ($13)
-Daiso shoelift ($2)
-Multicoloured CareBear ($7)
-Lollipop Pen ($5)
-Destiny's Cries ($15.90)
-MacDonalds' extra small coke($1)
-Pokka Green Tea ($1.50)
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Total: $67.40
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P.S. It does help me distress a bit.

2010-05-27T05:40:00.001-07:00

hey!!! i got my IC today!!!! Hahs. Expected to get it end of the year or even next year. Wow, it's fast! The pic sucks....! Nevermind, I get to remake one after 15 years, when i'm 30. Old already! Hehe. So excited. Conference with Darren after I reached home. On 3G. Heartpain. So expensive! Just becuase he want to see my IC and he laughed at my pic?! God damn him...! And I saw Jinhye and that bastard face through 3G and those spoiled brats' pranks. They will pay some days. And someone please tell them that I mentioned them here. They have the guts, come to me. I will make them understand the meaning of respect and might as well teach him how to grow up too. A disgrace. But I'm relieved that they took the nicer picture. ^^

So not to let you feel lonely, let's study hard together okay? Although I won't study till dawn like you, but yea...

P.S. Sometimes, harsh words do give strength if you think at the positive side. So i'm not going to apologise.

2010-05-16T07:12:00.000-07:00

Heys guys!!!! Changed phone yesterday. To Omnia Lite. Whatever, I just chose the best phone. After using for one day, it seems okay. ^^ Haha. Tomorrow going to Vivo or something to check some stuff and Huixian also want to buy stuff. But she is not feeling very well now, so let's see how it goes. Blahblahblah. Barbyes!

2010-05-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

Hey people. I didn't complete any exam paper. And I really mean that not one of the subjects that I completed. I'm done right? Thinking about that remind me of my chinese paper, which caused me the most worries. Don't even expect a A2 now. Sian!!! KNOW WHAT IS SIAN OR NOT? Went home after exams and slack. Stuck to my lappy, reading online stories, making me love ChoiSeungHyun more. Lazy to eat and anyway I don't feel the least hunger. So in the end, get myself addicted to ChoiSeungHyun! 100510! Obsessed!!! ^^ Back to the weird diet thing, I lost 3 kg in a week. Should I be happy or what? Now I can't even finish one serving of food. Then I will force myself to eat. Then my stomach will feel uncomfortable. So I just eat one meal a day. I don't feel hungry so I don't eat. While typing this, the thought of food make me feel so bloated. I will try to eat, Babes. Don't worry alright? Anyway, the weird diet continues. Today ate 2 eggs, 1 cupcake. Mum bought fish and chip back, finished everything and half of the fish, forced the other half into my tummy and make myself suffer now. Hahs! Shall I get a doctor soon? ^^ Anyways, I don't care. And since MYE is over, shall get over with this shitty mood. If I get killed or grounded by my mum, there's nothing I can do right? :D Okay! Shall continue with the the fangirl-ing stuff I'm doing all the while for my Tempo. Barbyes!

2010-05-09T06:49:00.000-07:00

Thanks for calling. Many things to catch up with you these days. I had new idols, my thinking began to change more. Maybe even you can't stand it. I'm becoming more selfish? Up till now, there is none of the papers that i managed to finish. Although i finished both compos, you can just imagine the quality. They will be marked by the other teacher, and i can imagine my marks. Perhaps your "40" marks for History is indeed good and i'm going to get jealous over it :) Are you sure you are going to send your kisses to me? i'm curious. How? Hee. What awful luck you have to meet Nicole!!! And how dare you stare at her till she notice you!!! Hah. Shall i send my "congratulations" over? I'm jealous and envious, babe, for I do not have such awful luck. :d Ya, watch more porn and you will finally pass your History. Maybe the two of you can masterbate together, perhaps? HAHA!!! Okayokay, you study hard okay......!!! Must become the top hor!!! And design stuff for me. Then if you stuff is up to standard, i may consider to let your sell your stuff in my future shop? Comission will be low though. Haha! Okay ass, i going to go play at my LALALAND. You rest well too!!! Barbyes!!! :))) (I can send you my smile, though :) )

2010-04-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

To you,
hey babe. Get things clear alright? I'm here and you are there. You wouldn't know my situation. Since you have a girl already, so just keep yourself busy by accompanying your girl. Stop poking your nose into my business, it's disgusting.

To you,
since I say that I would give up on you, whatever you said, it doesn't matter. Ultimatly, I'm the one that have not let go. So I shall just blame myself. But I just beg your pardon, don't act as if you are very close to me. I'm also disgusted by you.

To you,
I have the most thing to say about you. I will try to keep it short as it waste my PRECIOUS time. Yes, i admit i'm the one who spoke to you first, but you are the one who brought up the subject. I'm just being myself and react to you like i always do. If you are harsh and RUDE when you are in a bad mood, you should know it yourself. Instead of pouring out your heart, i suggest you sleep earlier. Wait till your mood is better, then start your conversation with me. You've mistaken what i meant. It is not your fault but being harsh is your fault. Since you can't let go, it's your fault. You are at a disadvantage. Please don't blame god. You sound ridiculous. A piece of advice, don't try to make yourself sound and seem so pitiful. Consider yourself blissful as there are a lot more REAL pitiful people out there, trying to make their life less miserable. Since you don't like the way i react to THOSE stuff like that, then YOU don't start THOSE kind of subject. We are different, so don't expect me to solve things the way you do. Be more considerate. It will benefit your future. And yes, who says i CARE? It's your matter, so solve it. Since i don't care, why are you telling me? Being stupid? Anyway, I've never care and will not care. Your last sentence, i will never forget. It's too scarstic to be forgotten. Thanks to you, my friend, my mood is ruined.

To you,you and you,
don't treat me any oh how because I'm not your pet. Respect is the keyword.

Let's just stop, alright? I'm exhuasted.

2010-04-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

Hey people! I'm back to save this going-to-die blog! ^^ Just created an me2day account. Influenced by JoKwon and GaIn. Saw a video on youtube and used it as a guide to create that account. Special thanks to the guy who did that video. After 'familarising' with the website, added JoKwon and GaIn. Play around with it again. And about in 10-20mins ( not more then half an hour), JoKwon/GaIn accepted my friend request!!! Which means either one of them is online...?! Quickly leave a message for them... Hope they saw it!!! ^^ Haha! It's so exciting!!! Added the guy who did that youtube video as well, but it seems that his page has also died. His last update was like 17-19 Nov 2009? Anyway... tomorrow is English and Chinese paper 1. So why am I here?! Should be revising!!! Oh ya, I forgot to bring my English file home....! Woohoo!!! There goes my English Compo!!! ==

2010-04-17T05:04:00.001-07:00

Hey people!!!
I lost my medicine, and that happened to be the best medicine to take went temperature is above 38.5 And my temperature went up to 38.8. So i just eat the remaining one and went to sleep. Woke up at three and went to sit at the kitchen. Temperature was 39.3 at that time. Damn... D called, chatted awhile and went back to bed. I thought I was going to faint. Woke up at 9.30am. Temperature was still the same. Mum bought that ice pad used by babies. Put that on and went to sleep again @ 10.30am after eating breakfast. Woke up @ 12.30pm and check temperature, 38.5. Don't have to eat that ass medicine, thanks to the ice pad. Went back to sleep again. Woke up @ 5pm again and check one more time. 37.0!!! ^^ BlahBlahs. So happy that I do not have the mood to rest anymore. :) blahs!

Thanks for Huixian's tag!!! <3!
D, HOW YOU KNOW I WILL HAVE ISONMIA!!!
Hehes. Anyway, thanks!!!

2010-04-16T06:17:00.000-07:00

To Babies who showed concern,
Hey Babies! Thanks for bombing my phone with notes and 'letter of concern'.
Thanks for DTDD for the long-distance call at 4.19am. You're are the best and the cutest! Special thanks to Bro too, for hiding in the campus toilet just to check if I'm okay. :D Long-distance call too! 大哥大嫂! Thanks for coming after school to visit. Nice chat yeah? Thanks for Aunty chicken soup! Nice! Thanks to HuiXian and Fuxuan for today shopping. My friend, don't need to feel guilty. You already rushed down to meet me. That's enough. ^^ Lastly, Brother Bear, thanks for showing concern! It's appreciated! :)

Temperature rose a little. It's caused by the Breeks dinner, I guessed? But not to worry, I will get better soon. :)

Barbyes!
Hugs, (can't kiss today. ^^)
Yiting!

2010-04-16T05:28:00.000-07:00

我明白你的意思了
放心, 我会死心, 也会忘记.

You're a great disappointment.
Today said that you are not worth my time.
I shall stop all stupid acts
and continue with my life.

I'm so sorry, baby, but I'm starting to hate you.

By the way, I hate liars and people who ignores my texts and calls.
I know you can't be bothered how i feel,
but if you do something that affects another's mood,
then you shouldn't be doing.
And, stop acting as if you are very close to me.
Cause we are not, you ignore my texts, didn't you?
Let's put everything to an end.
Stop my disappointment and hatred.

-听说在人生病的时候, 能更清楚地看清一切. 听说很多人就是在病床上决定重新开始, 放弃与放手的. 老天爷让我生病,是要我清醒, 而我收到了讯息, 也知道要做什么了.

2010-04-15T06:35:00.000-07:00

To You:
Yes, Singapore was fine. The weather had changed weird, I see. Company is doing well. Beyond well! The stocks slided at first, but thanks to Terrence, it survived through. He has got used to it like you do. It's a good sight. Thanks for coming back during April's Fool, although you skipped school. Yes, i know. And it's not Bro's fault. Life for me is alright. Getting used to the life without you. I need more time. BlahBlahBlah. And your Dad is starting to treat me better. He treated me lunch one day. ^^ So just study and don't worry alright?

Yiting.

2010-04-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

MIXED FEELINGS!

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT AND I'M NOT SURE IF I'M RIGHT TO FEEL CONFUSED. AND THERE GOES MY SELF-ESTEEM. I MUSN'T DENY THAT I HAVE WASTED MY LIFE LAUGHLY INFRONT OF OTHER, MAKING A FOOL OF MYSELF. TEARS WELLS AS I HATE MYSELF, NOT KNOWING THAT I'M ACTUALLY ACTING. ONE PERSON UNDERSTANDS ME BUT NOW HE IS GONE. I MUST STAND FOR MYSELF AND LEARN TO BE LONELY. SHOPPING ALONE HAS BECAME A WEEKEND ROUTINE FOR ME AND I ENJOYED IT, HONESTLY. BUT WHY WILL I FEEL PATHETIC AFTER I'M BACK HOME? EVERYONE NEEDS FRIENDS, I GUESSED. I WANTED TO BE YOUR FRIEND. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW AND DO NOT HAVE THE COURAGE. I DO TREASURE YOU, AS A FRIEND. DO YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY AS I DO?

I WANTED TO SHARE YOUR BURDEN BUT IT'S LIKE AS THOUGH I'M CONCERNING TOO MUCH. YOU LOOKED FINE...

2010-04-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hi people. Today was a happy day. Very fruitful and fun as well. I laughed a lot. Special thanks to someone. I lost four friends but made a better one. So I think I shall stop being bothered by it. Tired at the end of the competition. Sweat and facial oil covered my face. Gosh! Gross! Went home hungry and tired. I think this would be the day that I will treasure. Great experience and great memories. Thanks to Mr.Lim for the three cheers for Cabin Club. ^^

I don't know what exactly happened to you with your friends, I decided not to bother about it so much. I guessed this is the reason why you became closer to me. Thanks that it is me that you chose to be closer with. I guessed we are the people in the same situation. ^^

2010-04-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

I always thought that the both of you are mature and will not even bother about whatever April's Fool. Yet...! You all fooled me!!! Arg!!! Twice somemore!!! You two so bad!!! Bad bad couple!!! Where can like that!!! My prank for you all is the smallest one already. And you started first!!! Even called your mum to join in to fool me!!!
Return me my $18.40!!! NOW!!! Arg!!! WHY KEEP ON BULLY ME LAH!!! Still say I became stupid! WEI! YOU ALL DON'T TOO MUCH HOR!

CONCLUSION: TERRENCE,JOCLYN AND AUNTY ARE LAME! CHILDISH! XD

P.S. Although you all this kind of human who prank, but I know the reason for you all being lame and childish. I understand. Thanks for today's fooling. And the presents too! I'm happy today. :DDD Lastly,
THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FOR LAMERS!!!
HIP HIP, HOORAY!
HIP HIP, HOORAY!
HIP HIP, HHHHHOOOOORRRAAAYYYY!!!
(I'm lame too? Haha!!!)

Thanks,
with loves,hugs,kisses and pranks :),
HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!!!

---YITING; XIAOMEI :D

2010-04-01T02:35:00.000-07:00

我猜我知道理由了

因为这就是我的命
早已注定
为我注定了这种生命
老天爷还是疼我的吧？
至少他肯花时间在我身上
而这种命运应该需要更久的时间来安排吧？
这样说的话，
我还蛮幸福的。
好像是这样，
没错。
就让我祈祷不会遇到更难过的事就好：）

我选者，笑着。：D

2010-03-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

为什么会演变成这个样子？
妒忌，我为什么会妒忌？
羡慕，我到底为什么要羡慕？
一直都不在乎别人的一切，
只愿意过我要的生活。
把寂寞藏起来，
再用开朗来掩饰。
一直以来我都做得很好。
但原因是什么？
不知不觉，
累了，流泪了，哭累了，哭睡的。
醒了，哭醒的。
在我不知情的情况下，
厌倦了，讨厌了，烦了，累了。
眼前的一切
都是黑的，无聊的。
就开始疑问
我活着是为了什么？
有多过三个原因吗？
很遗憾
我一个都想不到。
我为什么要早熟？
为什么什么事都要想清楚了
才会生气？
为什么不能幼稚一点？自私一点?
为什么不能只看表面就生气？
为什么我要迁就别人？
为什么我要替他人着想？
我本来就是这样的人吗？
不。
那我为什么要装呢？
是我变了吗？
还是老天爷不喜欢我？
。。。
该停了
是时候了
就在这里结束。
这样我才能喘一口气
把时间倒流
回到那时
快乐，无忧无虑，幸福的童年
然后就在真正最开心幸福的那一秒
停下来
停一秒
给我一秒的快乐。
一秒后，
如果该走了
我会离开。
因为我知道
前一秒
我拥有了我想要的。

为什么从十一楼往下一看
看到的却是自由，和平？
内心舒服，
笑了
空气是甜的。
是因为忧郁占据了我的灵魂吗？

十一个为什么
我能一个一个把答案找出来吗？

2010-03-13T06:27:00.000-08:00

ytd!
mr lim bought a cake to celebrate the birthday for all students with birthdays that falls on dis term. im one of them and of cos, KIM KYU JONG!. ^^ blahblahblah. MR LIM IS SERIOUSLY THE BEST! EVEN CELEBRATED KYU JONG BIRTHDAY!!! :)

AND!!!!
TODAY IS THE DAY!

BREAKOUT 2010

THOUGHT I WOULD REGRET AFTER WACTHING SOME LAST YEAR VIDEOS IN YOUTUBE. BUT THE KOREAN TALENTS PROVE IT WRONG!!! THEY SEEM TO CHANGE THE CAST FROM LAST YEAR. THE CAST IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT! LUCKY I DIDN'T WENT LAST YEAR COS THE ONES PERFORMING THIS YEAR IS MUCH MORE GOOD-LOOKING! HAHA! DIDN'T LINE UP TO TAKE PHOTO WITH THEM, COS I KNOW 20MINS IS NOT ENOUGH. CONFIRM WILL CALL IT TO THE END WHEN ITS ALMOST YOUR TURN. THEN IT WILL ONLY TURN TO BIGGER DISAPPOINTMENT AND REMORSE. BLAHBLAHBLAH. WENT NP TO BUY KOREAN SNACKS THEN GO TUITON. GILLIAN LOVE THE PERFORMANCE TOO!

KOREAN EXTREME KDANCE COMEDY BREAKOUT! FIGHTING! :D

2010-03-10T05:01:00.001-08:00

Are you sure I did tell You about it?
How come I don't remember?
It would be great if You were to speak the truth.
I will not eat that person who told You alright?
Anyway, You keep feeling that I actually still have feelings for him.
I don't know why you feel that way.
I didn't have big reactions
as You are not the first one to make this kind of comments.
My answer to this question is:
You have to go through yourself to understand my heart.
Who says I can only cry if I worry for the one I love?
You mean I can't shed a tear for my parents?
Try thinking it the other way.
Cause i feel your thinking doesn't make sense.
And I'm sorry to say that I think that way when I was younger.
Don't mistaken me as trying to be sarcastic.
I'm just trying to explain.
I and You should't deny the fact that i went through more than You.
Is not like I'm proud of it.
Who would like to go through such experience at the tender age of 14?
You know that the guy loves and care a lot for You,
and he is now actually having a hard time alone.
Wouldn't your heart break?
Actually just a second ago,
like 9:15pm to 9:16pm, (the current time now is 9:16pm)
I think I still like the guy I like before last time.
But when my mind is back on Him,
I'm still worry for Him.
You get what I'm trying to say?
Okay, byes. ^^

YITING:)

2010-03-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

SOME RANDOM PICS BELOW!!!!! :)

Accompany Vivian today.
Hope she's much better.
At least she is smiling today.
GLAD! :D
Shared the Lollipop LiQing bought for me for my Birthday.
Hope she can understand. :)
Hope Vivian can eat her whatever shitty mood away.
That's the reason for eating something sweet right?
Okay.
Since the pictures have already told you about my day,
i shall end here.
Byes!

2010-02-03T05:11:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY!!!!!

my balance sheet cant balance.
get real irritated.
i regretted asking guan yu as he is not even thinking due to the heat while waiting for the cabin keys to come.
approached brandon instead.
he strted solving it, but in vain.
nvm, nvm
asked yew wei, and he solved it!
he explain to me until he gets pek cek.
i dunno what he meant at first.
but of cos, i get it in the end.
AND AND AND!!! mrs fong came to cabin!!!
i freaked out!!!!
trying to comb my fringe to the side,(xiu wen also norh!)
but im not caught....!
miss punitha want me to pin up my hair,
but she should know i wouldn't...
:)
anyway!
went home and slacked!
mum caught me for not eatting lunch and dinner :0
lunch no time to eat, and she get back the moment i finished bathing.
how she expect me to get....?
den ate the food mum bought for me.
tats all!!

TODAY!

POA lessons.
realised that im probably the only one who cant balance the sheet.
*embarrassed*
blahblahblah
lessons went on......
went to eat ei8hteen chefs with vivian, fuxuan, huixian, amy and nicole!(its my first time there though)
i ordered baked rice with creamy white sauce with scrumbled egg!
so nice!!!
played like mad womens there.
making lots of noise... :x
shopped awhile and went home!!!

2010-01-20T05:24:00.000-08:00

juz finish tpying the volleyball tink and emailed to miss punitha.
was browsing yew wei's blog and he mention bout it den i rbm.
THANKS!
i was chionging it.
hope i didn't miss any details.
and and and!!!
todae mr lim veri wad lor.
sae wad nvr force us...
wad he is doin is forcing us.
we will be habing PT sessions if we dun go?
is dis forcing or threatening???
and why is he doin all dis?
his reason was:

-while others was habing fun, we hope that u all dun miss the outdoors activities too.

(after awhile....)

-i hope u all could go as the PT sessions would be like hell..

so, i was tinking, since others had fun, and he didn't wan us to miss it, so tats why hes organizing dis hell-liked tink? (hes slapping his own mouth...?)
if he wan us to go, den juz sae he wan us to go.
nid to sae so mani tinks that made us tink tat he took all the trouble to organise the wadeva shit tink, juz for OUR OWN GOOD?
he still strt tearing infront of us.
i seriously dunno wad is there for him to be sad.
wads exactly is wrong wif him?
is camping realli tat important for the somewhat leadership to develop in us???
well, it doesn't work on me so im still nt goin.

the way he talk to us is juz trying to get our butts to malaysia next week.
frm the way he shouting to us during assembly(dunno when) to him todae toking to us nicely,(if dis continues, i tink he is goin to beg us.) i oreadi knew it. and i dun realli believe that there will be wad PT sessions.
wadeva it is, im nt goin....

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2010-01-15T07:35:00.001-08:00

OH MY!!!!! SEUNG GI GREW UP!
no more that teen seung gi.....